Blog of My DiSfUnCtIoNaL lIfE

2012-01-21T20:47:00.002+08:00

i definitely wish i was prettier,smarter,taller,skinnier,funnier and richer coz that will make my life so much more easier..AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

2012-01-21T14:54:00.000+08:00

so im starting work next wed!yay me!well not exactly yay but yay as in i get to earn my own money(lyk finally!) and not to mention i get to gain experience and be more independent :)) but i have to take leave on 6 and 7 feb since my mom is going to have surgery on 6 feb.she'll stay in the hospital from 5 to 7 feb.hope everything goes well *prays hard* if the surgery goes well,she'll be able to walk normally and start work again ^_^ but i dunno what's gonna happen to my lil bro once i start working.i mean...who's gonna teach him math??and el??and who's gonna make him do his hmwrk...gosh...the disadvantages of being an elder sister whho has an elder brother(i do all the work =_=) ok i seriously gotta find something to do to keep myself busy

2012-01-20T09:26:00.000+08:00

2012-01-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

gosh im still so pissed with my dad!just coz he thinks my classmates are not gd,he doesn't want me to go to ngee ann poly.lyk WTS!well i dont care!im going there!it has been my choice since i was sec1..he can't stop me!and he said he'll let me off to be independent after 5 yrs.i mean lyk seriously...5 yrs???!!!great just great..well at least im not that old by then..sometimes i think that my dad hates the fact that im imperfect....he should make a test tube baby if he wants a perfect daughter....

wondering and hoping

2012-01-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

i wonder if he has really moved on coz i havent
i wonder if he has stopped thinking bout me coz i havent
i wonder if he has stopped missing me coz i havent
i wonder if he has fallen in love with someone else coz i havent
i wonder if he has completely given up coz i havent...........

soooooooooooooooooooo broken

2012-01-04T11:44:00.000+08:00

2012-01-04T11:27:00.000+08:00

so im soooooooooooooooooo liking her rite now.love this song lonely by olivia mitchell :)) and kelly clarkson's my life would suck without you <3

2012-01-04T10:12:00.002+08:00

is it just me or do i look skinny in this photo??haha.ok im just trying to make myself happy =_= feel so empty...haizzz....ok ]i] sho]uld stop mourning =_= so i've been sending my mom to the hospital and been cleaning the house(im officially the 2nd housewife..lyk wth) and been trying to find a job.today im going for an interview at raffles place and then im going to sun plaza's ntuc to apply for a job.hope at least 1 place will accept(prays hard) ok i should really try to stop crying....haizzz....

HEARTBROKEN

2011-12-25T17:29:00.002+08:00

YEAH IM HEARTBROKEN.he left for india yesterday..feel so empty.............i seriously cant move on........... :'( been trying to distract myself by planning how to redecorate my room...pathetic life...ok i wanna cry...shall stop here..

random

2011-12-21T20:22:00.004+08:00

ok time for me to crap bout my life again.so now im allowed to use the laptop(path to freedom) and im allowed to go to school(yayness).BUT,LIFE STILL SUCKS

coz even if i get to go to school,if my parents don't talk to him soon,my social life will just be crappy.seriously i just want to KILL MYSELF!my dad lectured me just now =_= keep saying "you must only concentrate on studies and nothing else" so irritating.what's poly life without any friends??!!fine i don't mind concentrating solely on studies but i still have to have time out with my friends.im a teen for goodness sake!the past few days have been quite frustrating for me since my mom can't walk so i have extra house chores to do.AND i have to massage her.yeah i want to be a nurse but right now,im not strong enough to massage.my hands and fingers hurt so bad!but nvm..and i had to cook(im so scared of hot oil!).and i seriously need a job soon.im dying at home.it's like im a POW-PPRISONER OF WAR =_=

and apparently weimin told me that he saw me at woodlands??i was searching all over the mrt(from where i was standing with my mom)for him coz i felt like he was there and he really was :)) what is it?a sign or something??well i hope it is.coz i seriously felt like he was there(weird) but no matter how tall i am,i couldn't see him =_= pathetic attemp to find him... :((

ok i should really just stop crapping..and i shall not write in my diary anymore..

SCREWED UP LIFE

2011-12-19T18:06:00.002+08:00

title says it all..i have a screwed up life.well in reality at least but not in the world of fantasy that i live in(for the past few weeks).soooo my mom is sick(her bones are brittle so she cant walk properly-awesome =_=).good thing i didn't run away coz if i did,she'll be suffering now since nobody will be taking care of the household needs and my lil bro(since my elder bro went ns).been pretending to enjoy myself for the past few days.seriously need to get a job.i need 2 jobs.one in the morning and one at night(seriously).daddy won't be working by the end of the year(pray hard he gets another job) and mom is so sick(im kinda like the new mom- "splendid" =_=).and my love is forbidden(even more "awesome" =_=).seriously could life get any worse??hmmm let me think-YES =_=.life just sucks(except the fact that he's still in my heart <3 hehe)..but other than that,life just sucks.i have to use the com secretly,i have to contact weimin secretly..good thing she called me on friday coz that's the day i was prepared to run away.then she stopped me.so for the sake of her and my beloved i won't run away(it'll just cause more hurt).but i really just wanted to run away and meet his mom and apologise and just talk to him and hug him and....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....im just dying to see him..yeah i can forget bout him-NOT!seriously...how can i forget him or choose to let go??no way that's ever gonna happen..apparently my love life is like the song love story(just that im not a scarlet letter) and it's like the movie dear john(just that we're in the same and country and our parents don't approve-ok maybe just my parents >.<) and it's like the movie will you merry me(which is like really the best suited.just like my love life,the couple in the movie are different religion and the parents are not really keen on that and the couple wants twins-just like me and him <3 but they worked it out in the end.such a happy ending ^_^) i really want everything to work out...another reason why i want to run away.coz if i stay at home,then i cant do anything to try and get my dad to talk to him or try to get both parties to just talk at least(gosh adults are sooooooo CHILDISH sometimes).i really don't get it.they expect us to make wise decisions and be matured yet they don't want to talk things out =_= they can't leave the situation hanging just like that(it's like a movie that has a second part-like twilight or harry potter).seriously what's the use of bearing a grudge against each other??(wow so matured of them).even if they don't accept it now,jus talk!for goodness sake!they don't have mouths or something??gosh damn it...if they can't accept my love now,it's ok i can understand.but if they can't accept it once im 18 or 20 or 21,i'll really just elope somewhere to marry him-SERIOUSLY.i get it that my parents just can't bear to let me go(especially my dad) but they have to..sooner or later....well no matter the distance or time,he's still in my heart <3 i just don't get it why i got beaten up for telling the truth(that i still love him).my dad said he won't get angry or beat me up!seriously..he asked me to tell him how i really feel.so i told him nicely then he beat me up!with the vacuum cleaner!(and it got dented).mom beat me up too...i just said i still love hime..that's all..and my dad thought im gonna live with him like now.that's not even what i meant!and he said "why should i understand your feelings?" oh wow thanks a lot dad..what had a 16 year old girl got to do to make her dad understand her feelings??!!seriously!SCREW IT!i should really create my own movie of my life story(like it would sell.pfft =_=).or maybe i should write my own novel :)) about my love life most importantly.it'll be epic(the movie and the story).i'll probably become a millionaire(in my dreams =_=)...ok i should really get back to writing in my diary instead of here..hmmmmmmmmmm.....

ESCAPE PLAN

2011-12-13T07:49:00.002+08:00

im planning to escape.i seriously wanna run away from home.been planning how im gonna escape.i alrdy wrote a letter to my dad.im just waiting for the right moment to leave house.thought of leaving today but my bro go ns today so my dad will be at home after he sends my bro...ok i need to plan further..dam it.

Path to Freedom

2011-12-07T09:31:00.002+08:00

HELLOOOOOO.it's been so long since i last posted.finally got to use the laptop :) and i got back my phone.but,it's still a long way to freedom....trying to figure out what to do to make everything better again..been lonely for the past few days...not being able to talk to him is just crap..im so dumb.i keep making the same mistakes over and over again...my life just sucks...didn't slp the whole night yesterday.i was literally doing ntg =_= my daily routine now is wake up,eat,clean the house,watch tv,slp..yup that's the typical life of atiqah =_= i seriously dont noe what my dad wants...but i know i will get through this somehow because i won't be given this obstacle in life if i cant overcome it..suddenly remind me of jordin spark's song-take one step at a time
"take one step at a time,there's no need to rush.it's like learning to fly or falling in love" the lyrics are true.so i have to take small steps first.i'll make it for sure :) nothing is impossible :) by 20,i'll make sure im matured enough to make better decisions.4 yrs is not long :) i really don't know how to describe my life rite now.im lonely but at the same time i feel warm n happy with some sadness because he is close to me in my heart.distance only makes my love for him stronger.i miss him so bad but i know he'll be with me all the way <3 gosh im crying while writing this post haha. *slaps face* i should keep my chin up.but he is right though.i love him so much yet i don't really show it with actions.but i know i really do love him.is it because im not matured enough to show the romantic side of me??i really don't know but what i do know is that my love for him is true.it really is.i really wish i could just take out my heart and give it to him or like have a scanning done for my heart wanting the scanner to show "i love you" ok i have weird hopes and dreams >.< anyway,gosh i don't know how i treated him last time that made him feel secure.dam it!!im so stupid!no worries i'll get it right.may not be now but soon.i can't just possibly give up in trying to correct my mistakes that i keep repeating right??i should take as many chances to try and make my life better :) give up is sooooo not in my dictionary and never will :) ok enough of talking bout how crappy my life is because it's not.it will never be crappy with him in it <3 ok i suddenly feel like screaming at the top of my lungs and just going bungee jumping (did i spell that correctly??) lolz.well wadever.ok now i gtg.mom is shouting at me =_=

2011-10-27T20:28:00.002+08:00

ok i seriously wanna cry rite now...should jus stop fooling around next time.shall be serious every time...ok got no mood 2 type...ahhhh wadever

useless.........

2011-10-18T18:49:00.003+08:00

im finally home.walked in de heavy rain jus now drowning in my sorrows....it's been an extremely long time since i cried this hard.actually,i've nvr cried this hard in my 16 yrs of life.i've always cried dats true.but not this hard.not this hard till im literally begging someone not 2 leave.seriously i would get an F9 if love was a subject.but i would still keep trying n nvr give up.dats wad life is about.someone really special 2 me taught me dat.he taught me 2 stand up n walk again.he taught me 2 make my own plans(which im really failing but im still trying n always will no matter how long it takes) u could say dat 2day is probably de worst day of my life.1st time i begged someone 2 stay n not let me go.i've nvr done dat b4.n i noe y.coz last time,wasn't love but now it is.jus thinking bout him leaving me makes me wanna cry :'( u noe de feeling u get wen dat 1 person u truly loves suddenly says I HATE YOU it's lyk de world jus came crashing down n u got no wer 2 go.dats exactly how i felt 2day :( lyk im so unwanted,hated by everyone...he keeps thinking i don love him.y??coz i don put my words into actions.well maybe he doesn't see it.but i've nvr written a letter 4 any guy b4.except him.i've nvr bothered 2 accompany my ex home even wen he asks me 2..but VINOTH.i do those little things 4 him.last time i didn't even bother 2 pick up a pen n start writing a love letter or a sorry letter.i didn't even meet up wif my ex dat often.sometimes we only meet up lyk 3 or 4 times a month...but wif VINOTH i try my best 2 have spare time jus 4 him.it's those little actions i do 2 show dat i really truly love him yet he doesn't see it.yeah i can't give him everything but i try 2 give wad i can afford or wad i can give.but he jus doesn't see it.sometimes i wish i could jus take out my heart n brain n show him how i feel n wad im thinking.im de type dat i don say much sometimes but dat doesn't mean i don care.it jus means im reflecting on myself or my life.n doesn't mean i don love him.i really wan 2 give him everything but i really can't.come 2 think of it,i would rather get into a poly but not a course i wan,than get into a course i wan but i lose him.I REALLY DON'T WANNA LOSE HIM.NOT NOW.NOT EVER :'( i jus wish he trusted me more....yup definitely i've lied 2 him but y??jus coz i don wanna offend him in any way.but now im not lying 2 him anymore coz i noe he doesn't lyk it.but wen i say wad i feel,he thinks dat im defending myself..so i really dunno wad 2 do.i do something 2 change myself but he doesn't lyk it.he say i changed too drastically.well at de vry least i changed.i even stopped being jealous n don mind talking bout other girls wif him.if i don love or care 4 de relationship,i would jus say in de 1st place dat im not gonna change.he doesn't change yet i don say anything.i complain but i still accept.coz i noe i myself can't change so drastically n so fast.it's jus not possible.he himself said dat he won't expect me 2 change coz he loves me 4 who i am.well then now im confused.he's asking me 2 change so much yet wen i do,he's angry..sometimes i really jus dunno wad i did wrong.sometimes i jus need him 2 tell me,hoping he'll help me after dat.n it's really not easy 4 me not 2 kiss him.it's jus so torturous!!!yet he thinks it's easy 4 me....so he said it'll be easy 4 me 2 let go of him too...dats not true!if it's so easy 4 me 2 let go,i'll jus happily walk off n nvr look back.i'll jus turn my head n search 4 some other guy...but not vinoth!!how can i let go of him so easily wen i really truly love him??it's not possible :( he may not see it but de little things i do 4 him is a sign of my love <3 yes im thankful dat he gives me everything yet i feel so guilty coz i can't give everything...yeah actions speak louder than words but sometimes u jus can't do anything so all u can do is say de words dat u really mean..i really mean it wen i say I LOVE YOU <3 yeah it's difficult 4 him 2 believe me coz i've lied 2 him.but not bout this.i've nvr said i love you in front of my ex b4.VINOTH IS DE ONLY GUY I SAID I LOVE YOU to in person.FACE TO FACE.ONLY HIM.he may not see it or feel it but im really trying my best 2 change 4 him n 2 make him feel special n secure.i've nvr begged anyone 2 stay.seriously..only him..wen he said he hates me n doesn't love me anymore,i chose 2 not believe him coz i noe deep down,he still cares.he still loves me even if it's jus a bit of spark left.i noe he still cares coz he doesn't wan me 2 cry.i really noe he still cares.i choose 2 believe he still loves me even if it's jus a bit.but i really wonder...he said he loves me crazily n will nvr give up even if it really hurts him so bad..but y is he giving up now wen im still hanging on choosing 2 believe he still loves me.I REALLY LOVE HIM THAT'S Y I DON'T WANNA WALK OUT OF HIS LIFE.IT'S NOT POSSIBLE.me choosing 2 break my vow jus so i won't lose him is 1 of de most important signs of me loving him so much.SO MUCH DAT I CAN'T BEAR 2 LOSE HIM.I REALLY CAN'T... :'( im really trying 2 figure out a way 2 prove 2 him dat my love is true.but i really dunno wad 2 do :( am i thinking too hard??is de answer rite in front of me???well y can't i see it??maybe de reason we argue so often is coz we love each other too much so we expect a lot frm each other...maybe...love is not all fun n laughter.it's complicated.if it's all fun n no pain,then dats not love.im alrdy being so rebellious..i feel so guilty..it's so not lyk me 2 rebel or be bitchy.i noe myself.im not lyk dat.im seriously not lyk dat.IM BETTER THAN THIS!but y am i lyk this now??y???!!! :'( ahhhhh..............!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my life is so screwed up now.it's amazing how i can even survive n stand up 2 learn how 2 walk again.im proud of myself 4 dat.im literally breaking down into pieces yet im using every bit of me left 2 learn how 2 walk again..bit by bit.i noe i'll make it.maybe not now.but soon.i'll jus keep holding on coz i noe i'll make it through ^_^ someone taught me 2 always be strong.use ur mistakes n failures as ur path 2 success ^_^ i wish dat he would be as positive as he wants me 2 be.I REALLY LOVE N CARE 4 HIM <3 i hope he understands..i got so much more 2 say but 4 now,let's jus leave it here n continue some other day :)

2011-10-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1im seriously gonna miss 4/6 :'( y does time flies so fast??seems lyk it was jus yeaterday dat i started secondary schl life..so gonna miss de jokers in my class-hilmi,vinoth,jared,zhanyuan n all de other guys.i'll miss them! :'( ok i should really stop crying.but i jus can't help it!they're lyk my 2nd family..going on outings wif de class has always made me forget all my sorrows.they may not be able 2 help me but at de vry least they make me smile without me asking them 2 ^_^ my chest keeps hurting.think i've been crying too much lately >.< well im crying again rite now..shall stop writing 4 now.bye ppl

2011-07-26T18:17:00.002+08:00

woah!it's been exactly 2 months since i last posted >.< well i've been really busy wif schl stuff..i spent de whole of june holidays revising chem,physics n some math.i noe i've got no life don nd 2 remind me xD...anyways,prelim is nearing..it's september..i really hope i do well coz prelim is harder tan o lv..so if i do well 4 prelim,it means i'll do well 4 o lvl.wish me de best okies!

2011-05-26T20:03:00.002+08:00

hey peepos!!!!im back 2 blogging!i noe i've been lyk MIA 4 a while now..no wait 4 a long while.haha.well dats coz i've been busy studying u noe wif 'o' lvls n stuff lyk dat...well i've got twitter but i don really use it..but if anybody else has twitter,do follow me pls :)) anywaes,2day,i gto a box full of hearts.how sweet is dat!so cute! :)) he really lyks me i guess..he's lyk trying super hard 2 capture my heart n im supposed 2 give him an answer 2moro..think i alrdy noe wad 2 say ^_^

2011-05-10T14:33:00.001+08:00

helloz ppl.so..jus now geog exam was..WOW..trust me..my answers were so cool.believe me...u should look at mah fb n twitter.hahaz..k im lyk playing games rite now 2 relax my mind 4 a while..2moro is math paper 1 n geog paper 2.it's such a gd combination.yayness!!...

2011-05-08T14:38:00.002+08:00

hey!!!fyi,im still so in luv wif taylor!!!omg!!!he's my husband.lolz!!ok i dunno wad 2 say..hmm...well exams so far are jus lyk crap.i'll probably flunk most of de subjects.seriously.even de smartest students thought dat de chem paper was super difficult!!if they tot it's difficult,wad bout me then??!!i'd probably die!well don't matter...i'll jus have 2 do well 4 mcq n try my VERY BEST :))ok peeps im gonna play some games 4 a while then revise.toodles!!

2011-04-10T10:45:00.002+08:00

ahhhh!!!!!!!luv winnie the pooh!!this was raidah's present 2 me :)) so cute rite??!!anywaes,will be going out wif shiqin n haikel later so yeah..oh n sports day was awesome!!except 4 de fact dat fuji got 2nd..dam it!!we lsot 2 kinabalu by 2 points!!stupid fujians didn't wanna cheer!!we could've won if they cooperated!!it's ok..at least we're evenly matched n got 2nd :))kk i'll update later.bye peeps!!

voluntary work!! :))

2011-04-03T12:09:00.002+08:00

heys!!so yeasterday was a super tiring day!!but was worth it.i volunteered 2 help manage de games n kiddy rides at a carnival was super fun!!looking at de kids play was really worth it.bu now my shoulder is really hurting..omg!!k i gtg.will update later..coz now i gtg fetch my bro.TEEHEE!!

2011-03-30T18:57:00.002+08:00

HELLOZ!!!so im at home now(obviously)supposed 2 be doing my hmwrk now but i fell aslp jus now while doing my malay hmwrk..lolz pathetic!haha..anywaes,jus now my mock chem spa exam was lyk crap!!!i broke a burette!!omg!!lyk 4 de 1st time in my whole sec schl life!!i was lyk so shocked!but ok nvm..anywaes,de calculations was actually easy but i didn't noe how 2 start!!i knew dat must use one of de values dat i got but i didn't noe use dem 2 find wad..so in de end i didn't do de calculations..so sadded..2moro is physics 'o' lvl spa(de actual one!!)next thurs is 4 chem 'o' lvl spa..so nervous!wish me luck..k gtg now..my parents arguing alrdy..byez!!

2011-03-29T17:22:00.002+08:00

helloz ppl!!im finally lyk really twiterring..haha!!anywaes,im so stressed n keep freaking out!!there's loads of hmwrk 2 be done!!n im not even near 2 finishing dem!seriously!wadever..this thurs is de PHY SPA 'O' LVL ASSESSMENT(IT DE ACTUAL EXAM!!I'T INCLUDED 2 'O' LVLS!!)k i dunno wad else 2 say besides de fact dat im freaking out!!so byez!!

2011-03-22T19:23:00.002+08:00

that should be holding ur hand..i luv justin bieber!!4 any haters out there,y do u hate him so much??is it coz of jealousy??i mean even after he broke his voice,ppl are still calling him a gay!!seriously,wads ur prob ppl??!!u say he doesn't have talent..well,are u any better??if u are,i don't mind but if ur way worse than him n ur criticizing him,wad sense does it make rite??u hate him but ur still watching his vids..y??jus 2 insult him??get a life!!u must have been deprived of ur childhood..n if u say he's not talented,wad do u call rebecca black??!!he's way better than her!!seriously ppl!!u nvr even met him b4 so how do u noe dat he's super bad??!!if u've met him b4,den it's ok 4 u 2 hate him if u really noe his character..wow i said a lot 2day..well dats all..i spoke my mind..PEACE OUT

2011-03-12T17:03:00.002+08:00

helloz ppl!!let's see...wen was de last time i posted??december last yr!lolz..so long ago..well im back now.n isn't dongho cute!!!last time i lyk kevin but i had a change of hearts..lolz.anywaes,didn't go 2 schl 2day coz got stomach cramp.i missed out on lots of important stuff!!dang it!!mrs soon went through de bpghs paper 2!!n she gave a new wrksheet!!it's ok..i'll get it frm villa or marielle..somehow..someday..anywaes,i've got my schedule alrdy..ders no schl on monday!!woohoo!!tuesday i've got ss so i end at 10.wed i end at 10 coz ders chem n i don't have 2 go 4 MT!!yay me!pity hilmi.he's de only person in my class who nds 2 go...thursday i don even nd 2 go 2 schl!friday ders geog,el,n i dunno wad else..but i noe i end at 12.30..unless mrs soon wants 2 have another math lesson so i'll end later..

but who cares.at least ders still some days wer i can relax n hang out wif my frens! :) :)

2010-12-29T17:49:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey!!im back!well dats wad i always say...above is one of de pics taken wen going back 2 sg waiting 4 our flight at cambodia's airport.well let's not talk bout de trip anymore.let's jus talk bout wad i've been doing lately...did ntg much..dis few days been going out 2 watch movie wif villa,accompanied aisyah 2 cut her hair..went marina barrage wif my parents n my lil' bro..went library wif weimin ytd..been stdying at home 2 prepare 4 next yr..i'm lyk super scared!it's 6 more days till schl reopen n i'm officially a sec 4 student!time flies so fast!!it still feels lyk i was jus vorn ytd..i miss my childhood life..but at 15,i tink dis is wer life really starts coz ders tings bout relationships n love..den ders frenship crisis..n de stressful days of trying 2 do our best in studies..preparing 4 'o' or 'n' lvls..ders loads of tings dat happen wen ur 15..nunlike childhood days wer all i did was play..do homework..watch tv..eat..slp..apparently dats about all..but now evryting has changed..frens start 2 change..even i start 2 change!but dats wad life is all about rite??making changes n adapting 2 new environments.taking risks n chances 2 do wad is best 4 ourselves..ok i should really stop talking bout life once in a while..haha!well wish me luck 4 next yr coz i really wanna get gd results n dis time i seriously studid extremely hard!!kk i better go now..bb!!

2010-12-20T19:25:00.002+08:00

helloooooooooooooos!!haha.what have i been up 2 lately?well i've been studying almost evry nite wen there's time.been smsing n chatting wif frens.been going out either 2 watch movie or just hang out wif frens.2moro will be going 2 marina barrage den city link den marina square(if ders time).currently watching videos on youtube.gues dats bout all 2 be said.so buhbiez!

2010-11-21T12:07:00.002+08:00

Hey hey hey!!i noe i haven't been updating dis blog.well dats coz i've been away 2 malacca.jus came back on friday so yeahs.ytd was 2 busy doing other stuff..well,ders lyk 200 plus pics of de cambodia trip so im not gonna upload dem here coz it'll take 4ever.so i'll jus talk bout wad happened during de trip maybe 2moro or wenever coz i 4got wad we did on some of de days coz de reflections are wif mr goh..so yeahs..wanna noe more,check out my facebook.i've uploaded de pics on fb.so cya!

2010-11-15T11:24:00.002+08:00

helooooo!!!!!!!!im back!!cambodia trip was super fun.actually came back 2 sg on 12 nov but no time 2 update blog..well 2moro will be going off again.dis time going 2 visit relatives at malacca..haizz..so tiring.will talk bout evryting dat happened during de cambodia trip once i come back on 19 nov.cya soon!!

2010-10-30T18:32:00.002+08:00

heloo!!im back.got back my report book on thursday.i didn't even cry even though my results are horrible.coz i noe i did my best..i noe i studied so it's not such a depressing situation.i'll jus try harder next yr.in de meantime,i'll jus study almost evry day during de holidays!i've learnt frm ethan dat we must always tink postive.so,im doing it now!hah!anywaes,going 2 cambodia soon..gonna miss my besties :'( so maybe i'll do a vid bout my besties n upload it soon..so cya!

post exam activity day 1

2010-10-25T18:05:00.002+08:00

helooooooooo ppl!it's been quite a while but im back 2 posting now.well all dat i've been through lately is just not fun so i won't talk bout it.but let's jus talk bout 2day.well 2day was de 1st day of post exam activity.had a game of captain's ball 4 de inter class games but i didn't participate coz i 4got 2 bring my p.e shirt!!omg!!i miss out on all de fun n excitement! :(......hah!
de 2nd activity was a lesson on brazillian drumming.it's so fun!!!i wanna do it again!but it was quite difficult 2 fllow de rhythm at 1st coz i lost track of wer i was at some points of hitting de drum.hah!but i still managed 2 play it at de end of de day.overall i had loads of fun!so dats all ppl..cya!

2010-10-01T21:20:00.006+08:00

hey hey hey!!im back!!k jus now was geog n physics paper 2.physics was quite ok 4 de 1st time!hah!but geog.im a goner....haizz..but wadeva coz 2moro's de last day of exam 4 dis yr!!yay me!!n it's only physics paper 1 which is lyk mcq questions so should be quite ok.wish me luck!i tink i improved on my physics u noe!!im so proud of myself!k dats all..will pdate next time.till then,buhbiez!

2010-10-01T21:20:00.003+08:00

hey hey hey!im back! exams are not over yet.but dis is de only time i have 2 relax n use de com 4 a while b4 getting back 2 revision.anywaes,de papers so far are ok.history is de best!which i jus took jus now.mr chiu actually gave us notes all about seq questions n de answers.i didn't tink dat de exact same question would appear but it did!!omg!!n i wrote de exact same ting written in de notes!!so i'll surely pass my seq wif flying colours but de sbq questions were lyk omg!!i didn't finish de last sbq question though.it was 8 marks!omg!but it's ok.i noe dat i'll still pass.well i gtg.wanna play some games.hah.tata!

2010-10-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

Haha!!retarded fake glasses.was wearing it during de yog wcv thing.super fun experience!will show u other pics i took while i was der.soon.jus wait 4 it.hah.anywaes,2day's el exam was ok.de compre questions were quite difficult.de compo n situational writing was better than my compre.im sure of dat.i think.hah.well,another i must add on is dat me n villa,we're gonna join de teens supreme competition!!we're siniging!hah.so yeah.im jus wondering wen is de competition.all i noe is dat de closing date 4 registration is 10 november.well, jus wish me luck aites?4 my exams n de competition.dats all.byeee!!

2010-09-27T08:37:00.002+08:00

hello ppl!im currently at schl in de com lab.just finished doing geog!yay me!hah anywaes,eoy is coming soon which is dis friday so yeah im seriously nervous.im like really hoping that i won't fail my chem n physics again.coz if i do, they'll probably ask me to drop 2 combined science!omg!i'll try my best n i hope all the hard work i put in will pay off.wish me luck! k ppl,will update later.now i wanna continue surfing the net.byeeeeeeeesssssssss!

2010-09-21T19:14:00.002+08:00

hello ppl!!it's been almost a month since i last posted.u noe y??coz as usual,i've been busy wif assignments,remedials n extra lessons.so yeah.let me just tell u wad happened 2day.so 2day was el oral examination.im pretty gd in speaking english.u could say dat it's almost fluent.so u would tink dat wen i read,there won't be any mistakes.but,i was so nervous 2day dat i read so fast n totally screwed up de whole passage.i made lots of errors 4 de 1st time in my whole entire life of reading!!!omg!!
dats only part of de oral.de pic discussion was even worse!i was literally screaming inside my mind!omg!it was a scene in a classroom.de 1st sentence i was going 2 say was dis "this picture depicts a scene in a classroom.''but b4 i could say dat,de teacher alrdy asked me dis "so wad do u tink is happening in de classroom?" n i was lyk wtf??!!i was going 2 say my 1st sentence!could have at least scored 1 mark 4 dat!urgh..
den der was de conversation.de vry 1st question was"so y do u tink some ppl are attracted by fear or love being scared?"dat was lyk so stpd!i replied by saying dat it's thrilling den,der was a moment of silence frm me.hah.den she asked me y izzit thrilling.den i was lyk"well..ummm..i just tink it's thrilling"it's lyk such a stpd answer!wad was i supposed 2 say??dat it's in de hormones??!!no rite!hah.well it's over now.i still tink i will pass.wish me luck!dats all ppl.will update soon.depends on how busy i am coz exams are near n i have 2 revise.so tata!

ct2 results

2010-08-28T17:54:00.002+08:00

im back!after a long while of MIA.hah!2day got ptm seesion.n got back my report bk.my results are lyk crap!i don't wanna talk bout it so i'll jus show u de marks.
el:63.2
mt:62.0(de lowest marks coz usually i get 70 or 80 plus)
emath:68(which sux coz it's lyk 2 marks away frm an a2!!)
chem:40.8
phy:28.3
combined humans:58.4
pure geog:64(i improved!frm d7 to b4!)
i told u my results are crappy.well don wanna talk much.all i can say is dat yog was freaking fun!!!took lots of pics.haven't upload yet.will upload soon.maybe later.depends.k byes ppl.cya soon!

ct2 starting soon

2010-08-08T15:27:00.002+08:00

hey all!im actually supposed 2 be studying.but nvm.i do have 2 relax sometimes u noe.yesterday alrdy got chem n maths remedial.so still counted as studying.hahs.anywaes,later will be revising chem n ss.den 2moro study physics n history.den tuesday study chem n physics again.den if have time study ss again.see i so hardworking.i'll study in de morning.den afternoon relax a lttle bit.den nite time study some more.den relax n watch tv.anywaes, FR askd 4 forgiveness...im still thinking bout it.but wadever.don nd 2 care bout dat.wads important now is my studes.n btw,im gonna apply 4 job wif marielle,villa n ashiqin soon.i dunno bout pei qin.but yeahs.u get wad i mean.k dats all 4 now.tata! :)

trigo sux!!

2010-08-02T17:34:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey ppl!!2day was such a %^%&#%#%$@#$% day!!!!ahhhhh!!!!!!!!!! i seriouslt h8 trigo.haizz..jus now after schl had 2 stay back wif mrs soon 2 do my trigo test corrections.i got 3 out of 15.pro rite???hah.i almost cried sia trying 2 do de corrections.but at last,i did much better.so glad.k dats all.will update next time.byeeeeeeeeeee

2010-07-31T19:03:00.002+08:00

ello ppl!!i've been so energetic lately!!!woohoo!!!!hah.u noe y??coz dat time went 2 vocal studio on friday 2 accompany marielle 4 her band practice.den at the same time we rehearse 4 our performance during busker's corner.den kept singing I Will Survive!hah!so fun sia!den de guys kept looking at us.had loads of fun wif de band.
anywaes,jus now de cambodia service learning wrkshop was quite fun.learnt more bout camdia n de language.vry diff 2 speak de language.i tink a few months later i still cannot speak properly!hah.anywaes,i grp wif saranjay,yi hui,ambaresh n jason.watched vids of poverty in cambodia.de 1st vid didn't cry.but de 2nd vid make me cry sia.it's so sad u noe.jus wan quickly go der n help de children.haizz.so yeah.but im still so energetic!!hah!i will survive!!btw,de cambodia service learning grps are having donation drives starting frm dis coming tuesday n thursday.it will be on 4 a few weeks so pls donate anyting like toiletries.pic books,shoes,clothes n other stuff.pls support us!!!

2010-07-25T11:23:00.002+08:00

hi again ppl.will be going out soon 2 pick my bro up frm class.so i'll keep dis post short n sweet.been watching russel peters lately.omg!i love him!he's so funny!hah.can't stop laughing.anywaes,still haven't done my physics homework yet.only did some.left a few more 2 be done.n i still haven't handed in my ss june holiday assignment!ahhhhhhhh!!!well enuf of de miseries.time 4 me 2 have a laugh again.so toodles!

schl so far

2010-07-24T10:36:00.003+08:00

hey ppl!i noe it's been a long while since i updated my blog.yesterday i online but lazy 2 update.anywaes,schl has been ok yet suckish.chem lessons are getting more n more tiring.sometimes even worse than physics lessons.n can u believe wad marielle said??she said dat she's starting 2 lyk physics lessons n mr chong!!oh my mama fly!!i mean lyk seriosuly.but wadever.so yeahs.FR hasn't been msging me at all n i dunno y.been trying 2 call him but cannot get through.i tink his phone got confiscated or someting.

bored to death

2010-07-13T18:33:00.001+08:00

hey ppl..im seriously bored rite now.ders ntg 2 talk bout.i mean lyk seriously!wad is der 2 talk bout schl???haizz...anywaes,will be going 2 gym i dunno wen wif marielle n raidah.coz wan lose weight.i so heavy alrdy.k i dunno wad else 2 say.so will stop here.bb

YOG training at NIE

2010-07-11T12:52:00.003+08:00

hey ppl!yesterday didn't get 2 post coz go training 4 de wcv(world culture village).it's a yog thingy.anywaes,it was damn hilarious!ethen rocks!ahhhh!!!i can listen 2 him evryday without getting bored.laugh3 till my head hurt.hah.he should come 2 gss n teach my class.i will come 2 schl evryday so willingly sia.im serious.anywaes,i miss him alrdy.den yesterday was his last day of training a group of students.yesterday was de 14'th time he train students.den at de end of de day,he 'played de song we're in heaven n i look at him lyk he going cry lyk dat.den i also going cry coz will miss de fun n laughter i had in just 1 day.haizz..i'll end my post by saying dis-must stay posisif!!!hah(ethen said dat his fren got problem saying positive so she say posisif)lolz

continue bout yesterday

2010-07-04T07:47:00.002+08:00

so yeah.den go out of hse alrdy den took bus go lrt den took lrt to cck den took mrt to amk.hah.reached der bout 3.50 lyk dat n FR reach alrdy sia by de time i came.den we go up 2 de cinema der 2 buy ticket 2 watch eclipse.but den we keep arguing who should buy de ticket.den in de end we nvr buy.so we walk around 1st.den decided 2 go back again n buy ticket.den i order 2 student ticket 4 de 6.10pm.den she say don have student ticket.so we nvr watch movie lah.den we go some other places.den at de end of de day we go eat.lolz.hah.maybe monday we go watch.we nvr buy ticket coz not enough money.dat FR lah in de 1st place he have $17 den he spent $10 on food de previous day so left $7 lyk wth sia!hah.den add my money also nvr add up 2 $20 so cannot buy.lolz.so embarrassing.hah.nvm lah.k dats all.bb

went amk

2010-07-02T23:57:00.002+08:00

ello ppl.im back!de last time i posted was 25 jun so now i wan make my blog alive again.since schl reopen alrdy i don have time 2 use com..haiz..anywaes,2day went amk wif FR.was planning 2 wear a dress but in de end nvr coz i don have belt.so at 1st,finished schl at 10.45 den went 2 bpp wif raidah 2 buy de...someting dat shouldn't be told.hah.k den after buy we go long john coz raidah wan eat.den i kept stealing her food.hah!after dat we walk 2 bp lrt n went home.
den wen i reach home,it was alrdy almost 1 pm lyk dat.den damn tired arh.den jus lie down on de sofa n fell aslp.lolz!nvr even bathe sia.hah!anywaes,woke up at 2 n checked my phone.got 3 msg frm FR.so i called him...den talk3 till 2.16.was supposed 2 go out at 2.30 coz meeting him at 3.30.den i quickly go call my dad 2 tell him i going out.den in de end he tell me say nd 2 hsework 1st.den i was lyk shit!!hah..coz i damn late alrdy.den i quickly vacuum de hse at de same time smsing FR using my mom's phone(my prepaid expire liao).den i sms him say can meet a little later anot.den wait 4 his reply damn long sia!!den by de time he reply me saying dat meet at 4,i alrdy finish cleaning de hse.den it was lyk i rush 4 ntg lorh!so damn pissed off!!den quickly go get ready n my mom woke up.hah.lolz.k will continue 2moro coz de post too long alrdy.nitez!

polymer science course ended 2day..sadded..haizz

2010-06-25T21:06:00.002+08:00

ello ppl..2day last day of polymer science course..i miss de students buddies n dr akasta alrdy!!haizz..y must end so early??got lots of memories dat i'll keep 4 de rest of my life..will upload pics 2moro n talk bout de whole journey maybe wen im free.as 4 now i wan play game 2 unemonise myself..hah.created my own word.k bb

1st day of polymer science at ngee ann poly

2010-06-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

yo yo yo!!2day was great!!had polymer science course at ngee ann poly(nap).damn nice!!2day made our own nylon n a chem-e car.didn't get 2 take pics coz my cam in de bag which cannot put at de table coz doing experiments.de nylon tingy damn fun!!!ahhh!!!!n our buddies vry frenly.anywaes,de nylon ting we had 2 mix 2 stuff(i 4got wad alrdy)den after dat take some kind of hook 2 get de nylon out.den must "bathe"it in de alcohol.den rinse it under running water.den dry it.den we coloured it.nicolle took all de nylon n bring home.i only take 1.lolz so sad.mines is red.den peggy take none.hah.but b4 all dat,me peg n nic ate lunch.de canteen is lyk way bigger den food courts or hawker centres.we combine money 2 buy fish n chips n chicken chop.damn nice can!!!ahhh!!!2moro we making slime.can't wait 2 go back der!!will try 2 take pics.toodles!!

2010-06-19T18:45:00.002+08:00

ello ppl.back 2 posting on mah blog.day don really wanna say much.yesterday went plaza singapura wif FR,Wan(his fren),hazimah(Wan's gf)n Wan's bro n his gf.we watched karate kid.i was lyk de youngest among dem n i was also de tallest girl der.so was kinda shy.i mean lyk seriously,i nvr met FR frens b4.n Wan is damn cute!!!!ahhh!!!!lolz.but he playboy.he got 2 gf.hah.dat was supposed 2 be a secret between FR n him.but FR told me.so yeah.didn't bring my cam der so didn't take any pics.den FR sent me home coz he promised.so yeah..we're frens now.dats all.bb

2010-06-16T16:25:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD..2day going library again..lolz..coz wan do homework..anywaes,below r de stpd photos dat i took while i was bored doing homework..how stpd can dat be??rite??hah.so yeah.as u all noe,i broke up wif FR lyk i dunno wen.on de day we broke up i ask him if we can still be frens anot.den he say no coz his gf will scold.den i was lyk @#%^*#%@#i mean lyk seriously.i was lyk tinking how he can get gf so fast.den 3 days ago he was lyk saying 2 me 2 have a great life coz he sick n tired of realtionships alrdy..den i was lyk saying ok wadeva..den he in de end say we can be frens coz he broke up wif his gf...den i was quite happy lah..den he say dat he wan patch wif me..den i was lyk wad??!!!!my mama fly!!den i ask him y..den he say he lied he got gf coz he got problem so he don wan me disturb him..den he say he still lyk me den he say den his life incomplete without me..den i was lyk ummm ok...but i haven't give him answer yet..i don tink i wan patch up again..i've had enough..k dat was a long story.shall stop here.bb

2010-06-15T18:29:00.002+08:00

sooooooooooo...2day did ntg so lets talk bout yesterday..ntg much happened yesterday except 4 de fact dat i did all my maths assignments n some other hw 4 de whole day..now im freaking tired n bored!!i tink my hair will drop off soon if it continues on..haizz...i was so bored yesterday dat i took photos wen doing hw..haizz..will put up de photos on fb n here soon..now i wan go bathe..bb

went 2 library again

2010-06-09T20:40:00.002+08:00

ello world!!2day as usual go libray wif my min min!!n as usual we didn't get any seats so we were lyk searching all over de place n in de end we sat at exactly de same seat..haizz...anywaes,did 2 maths wrksheets..de 1st 1 did finish de whole ting..but de 2nd 1 didn't do finish coz our brains exploding alrdy..so in de end went 2 lot 1..n bought some food..den took de bus home...k dats all bb

went library do hw 2day

2010-06-07T20:21:00.003+08:00

above is 1 pic of me wif wei min at qirti's hse during her bday party

hello again ppl!!2day went library wif my wei min!!lolz.1st went cck library but der got no space..so i just return my book n renew my library car(coz spoiled)..den took mrt go woodlands..den go de library der..walked de whole of de library 4 bout 20-30 mins trying 2 find a place 2 seat n do our hw.den after going up n down so many times,finally went down again n sat at a table occupied by 1 man.lyk wtf..den do do do den got 1 woman scold us coz she say we too loud..wen actually we were lyk whispering..n she can't expect us 2 talk so softly-i mean seriously..how 2 hear each othe if talk so softly??sheesh!anywaes,we finish around 2 lyk dat den wal back 2 mrt station..den took mrt 2 cck n went lot 1..go buy wei min's food..den go aries coz i wan buy hair band.den go ananas cafe buy food..den took bus home..de end..

oh 4got 2 talk bout yesterday...went 2 my mom's fren de son's wedding..yup..dats all.lolz!..will stop here..byeeezzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!

2010-06-03T19:26:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!!i practically did ntg 2day..n i haven't been able 2 keep 2 my schedule..haizz..coz im too engrossed in doing other stuff lyk wad im doing now n also playing lame com games..must really start doing my hw by 2moro..i still have 2 do some revision..im stressed!!lolz..n i really seriously lazy 2 upload pics on dis blog..coz it lyk takes i dunno how many hrs jus 2 upload a few pics..n ders lyk 70 i wanna upload..n lyk i said b4,if u wanna see de most recent pics jus go see at my fb...k dats all..gotta go bathe.nitez ppl!!

june holidays so far

2010-06-01T19:33:00.002+08:00

ello ppl!!2day is de 1st day of june n im...(fill in urself)...de days r lyk-wad am i doing??!! hah..i don even noe wad im doing nowadays..yesterday went 2 amk library 2 do some homework wif FR...i noe...anywaes,only did chemistry..but it's not finished yet..de questions are so diff!!i can't do most of dem so i literally gave up coz i was really in no mood 2 do anyting at dat point of time..so yeah...
den 2day,i practically did ntg..only cleaned my room n some other stuff..n kept watching tv..so 2moro i dunno wad im gonna do..i should really go out n just chill...im lyk really anticipating de polymer science course which is on de 4th week of june..so it's a pretty long wait..gosh dis sux!!anywaes,i still have geog,chemistry(some units left undone),physics,maths,el,ss,his..so now im gonna plan de days
2nd june:do el
3rd june:do his
4th june:do ss
5th june-13th june:relax(i dunno how but i'll tink of it somehow someday)
14th june:do geog
15th june-17th june:do maths
18th june:do chem
19th june:got religious class so after dat will jus relax n maybe do some revision
20th june:do physics
21st-25th june:go 4 polymer science course
26th june:got religious class again so after dat jus relax n maybe do some revision
27th june:de last day of holiday(i think) will just spend it having fun n be prepared 4 de start of schl
k dats all..so bb..hope u all have a gd holiday!!

2010-05-30T20:15:00.002+08:00

hey peeps!!back!!did ntg 2day so will talk bout friday
went to qirti's condo 2 celebrate her bday n peggy n xiangyi's
1st met up wif raidah at south view lrt..den go lot 1..den went 2 buy peggy's(p),xiangyi's(x) n qirti's(q) presents..me n raidah share money 2 buy q n x presents..den i no more money buy p's present so raidah buy herself..den went 2 food culture..oy yah 4got 2 tell u dat we also went mac coz raidah wan eat..den she eat de burger at food culture..den after dat waited 4 peggy,nicolle n de rest 2 come..wen dey come we went mini toons again..den wei min n felicia bought present 4 qirti..den waited 4 kit yan outside mini toons..den went off 2gether..took mrt 2 lakeside
we dunno de way so xiangyi called qirti lyk i dunno how many times...lol..den crossed one overhead bridge..den reached de side gate n it was closed lyk wtf..hah..den waited 4 a while n finally managed 2 get in coz 1 man opened de door 4 us..den peggy had 2 fill in someting..den went 2 qirti's hse..it was a vry long way..n wen i say long i mean vry vry long!wen we reach we hide de presents at one tiny place wer ppl cannot see..denwent into her hse..den peggy,nicolle n xiangyi gave de peanut sharpener which was wrapped in a lot of paper 2 qirti..her expression was lyk totally...(fill in urself)den webcammed(is dat even de correct spelling?)den me,wei min,nicolle,raidah,felicia n peggy went 4 a swim..kit yan took pics...we played a game..whoever 2 be de last 2 reach de finish line will do forfeit..den raidah was last..so she did de dalang dance..lolz!!so funny!!den played some more...den after swimming went 2 bathe..took some pics..den after we all bathe we grilled de food coz it was raining so cannot barbecue...
after eating webcammed some more..den took lots of pics..den xiangyi,peggy n qirti opened their presents..(actually qirti opened way earlier..but i 4got wen lolz)took a vid on dat..but i haven't upload on facebook..only uploaded de photos..go check out my fb if u wan see de photos....anywaes,den lyk dat lah..hah..but it was fun..we had lots of laughs 2gether..haizz..memories..oops sry 4 de extremely long post..hah..i noe it's boring without pics but it takes lyk i dunno how long 2 upload all de pics on de blog..n ders lyk 70 pics..k lahs dats all..rmb 2 check out de pics at my fb!!byeeeeeeeeeeez!! :)

2010-05-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

hi again!!above are some pics..im bored so i jus uploaded some pics..lolz..lame..hah..gosh i look weird in those pics

random guy jus said(add in urself) 2 me

2010-05-26T19:18:00.002+08:00

oh my mama..ders jus 1 random guy say(u noe wad he said) 2 me...omg..lyk wtf!!i don even noe him..de name is arif..lolz...added me on tagged a few months ago den suddenly chat wif me on msn 2day..weird..den say dat 3 words 2 me..den ask me call him so i jus call coz he vry irritating den i finally gave in 2 him..lolz..im too kindhearted..hahz lyk as if...so yeah let me get back 2 de point..de point is dat i don even noe him n u noe..it's lyk weird...omg..n 4 those who read my post 2 days ago,u would noe wad happened between me n FR..it's lyk oh my mama fly!!!
anywaes,now im lonely..haizz...being single sux sometimes...u noe sometimes i don get guys..it's lyk dey get a girl den keep saying ily ily lyk ntg else 2 say..den suddenly 1 day say let's break..n wen de girl asks y,he says de same old lame stpd ridiculous n so obvious n unbelievable reason n dat is-he nds 2 prepare 4 exams n wan stdy...lyk wtf???!!!u tell me wad kind of reason is dat??it's de most stupidest reason ever!!if u don lyk de girl anymore jus say it 2 her politely lah no nd give lame excuses..sheesh ppl...wow i seem angry 2day..hah!maybe i'll update later or maybe 2moro coz nw i wan play game..toodles!!

2010-05-26T17:39:00.002+08:00

ello ppl...2day last day of post exam activity..2moro getting back report book..so nervous..anywaes,jus now was de juggling thingy..1st learnt how 2 make sword,rabbit,dog n butterfly..hah..den de juggling part learn how 2 juggle ballon wif water inside(lyk duh..y do u call it juggling)...den dats all..hah..so fun!!lolz..nvr take pic..but nvm...anywaes,plans of going spectrum change alrdy...nicolle don wan go..so yeah..so sad..k lahs i update later..wan go bathe...bb

broke up wif FR

2010-05-25T15:20:00.001+08:00

hey...2day bad mood so i won't say much...jus wan say happy bday 2 peggy :) ....anywaes,broke up wif FR 2day..lyk wtf..i take back my words..i'll nvr 4give him..

2010-05-22T08:53:00.003+08:00

ello again..ytd was ok..kinabalu won again..damn it!!nvm..at least fuji nvr ge last...we get 4th..lol...hah..anywaes,no more studies till after june holidays!!!woohoo!!!so happy...but still got post exam activities...monday newspaper collecting..tuesday is i dunno wad talk..hah..den wednesday is de juggling course..den thurs get report book..den friday no schl!!finally!!but friday going qirti's condo 4 pool party for 3 bday girls!!peggy,xiangyi n qirti herself :)...k dats all..bb

got back all de results

2010-05-19T07:07:00.003+08:00

morning ppl!!it's wednesday 2day so i can go 2 schl vry late...anywaes,got back all my results alrdy..n they're lyk shit!!!

el-66
mt-76
phy-33.3(round up should be 33)
chem-31.3(round up should be 31)
his-28/50(de lowest score i've ever gotten)
ss-34/50(i noe it sux!)
so ss n his combine get 62(it's lyk on of de lowest score ever)
geog-22/50(im so careless!!missed by 3 marks!!)
maths-60(i can do better actually...but my matrices got lots of careless mistake!!)

i noe wad ur thinking..ur thinking dat my results are so poor...mostly i do badly coz got lots of careless mistakes..but chem n physics i study so hard evryday..i stay back wif mr chong 2 learn physics yet i still get dis kind of shit!!!urgh!!!nvm..de results havent combine wif ca1 yet so maybe i'll at least get a pass 4 chem or geog??or physics???wish me luck!!i really nd it..hahmust do well 4 ct2 n eoy..still have chance..dats all..wan go schl alrdy..bb!!

2010-05-15T18:43:00.002+08:00

ello!!2day don wan talk coz i lazy..above are some pics taken last yr dat i nvr post..i dunno y it's so small..nvm..anywaes,looking back at de photos i miss last yr..haizz...will upload more photos soon..maybe 2moro..depends..k now i wanna play games..toodless!!

exam results so far

2010-05-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

yo peeps!!back!!im not dat happy though..my results are like shit!!cried one whole day sia..now feel like crying again..my physics n chem both get f9!!can u believe it???omg!!so depressing..dats y my skin like vry plain..coz i emo..anywaes,will upload more photos..not now coz i lazy n not enough time..i can bet wif u dat june holidays almost evry single day can post n put photos on dis blog..
continue wif results..i got b4 after combining history n ss..so like shit rite??den el got b3..ok lah..not bad..den mt as usual got a1..but sometimes i get a2..hah..let's jus wait 4 de other results..wish me luck!!bb!!

2010-05-12T13:31:00.001+08:00

k im back..above are some of de photos dat were taken ytd..hah...cute rite??i noe..lolz..k lah will upload some more photos on de next post..brb

exams are over!!!

2010-05-12T08:26:00.001+08:00

ello!!!so happy!!!2day no schl coz marking day..finally exams are over!!woohoo!!so happy!!!anywaes,ytd was fun..went 2 nicolle's hse after schl..den got pillow fight!!!so fun!!den took some pics..shall upload dem now..eh no..changed my mind..later..i wan eat 1st

2010-05-03T20:59:00.002+08:00

ello again ppl..2day didn't do anyting so shall not talk bout 2day..ytd was quite fun..went 2 WWW...got sun burn..so sad..no im darker..frm half of my body being white 2 almost my whole body being dark..k now i dunno wad 2 say..k bb

2010-04-30T20:46:00.002+08:00

ello ppl..2day got mt exam..was ok..but i don tink i can easily get A..nvm..wish me luck!! anywaes, 2day went 2 woodlands after schl 2 meet faris..den as usual we walked around,window shopping..n blah blah blah..den dats all..lolz..he say he going buy 4 me winnie de pooh!!so happy!!..lolz...next tuesday is maths n social studies exam..hope i do well!!bb

exams

2010-04-29T18:12:00.002+08:00

ello..2day was el paper..de compo was quite easy..but de speech n compre was so difficult..i tink i jus pass de compre..nvm..im bored...2moro is mt paper..n de paper 1 is lyk 2 hrs..i always finish so early..anywaes,2moro going meet faris..going go woodlands..actually wanted 2 watch movie on monday but no money n my mam don allow..k dats all 4 2day..wish me luck 4 exams!!toodles!!

2010-04-22T20:03:00.002+08:00

yo..im back..jus watching some music vids..suddenly into demi lovato so much..hah..anywaes,mye is coming soon so im currently trying 2 concentrate on studies..so i don really have time 2 post..next thurs which is lyk de 1st day of exam,im going out wif FR..can u believe it??on an exam day...k wadeva..i gtg..later my dad pissed off..bb

2010-04-18T14:16:00.002+08:00

yo peeps..ytd was extremely fun n lame..hah..didn't get 2 take pics coz it was dark so couldn't see a ting if i took pics..anywaes,faris came along..i feel so guilty u noe..coz i got him into trouble..i begged him 2 stay wif me at de bbq till 10 pm wen actually he had 2 go home early..at 1st he didn't want 2 but in de end he did it 4 me..he's so sweet sometimes yet i treat him lyk dis..but i didn't mean 2 get him into trouble..it's jus dat we don't get 2 see each other often n jus spend time together..so i tot dat ytd nite i could spend more time wif him..we did have fun..but in de end he got into trouble..so sry faris..forgive me pls..k dats all..bb

2e2'09 class outing at pasir ris

2010-04-17T13:18:00.001+08:00

ello ppl..2day got class outing 2 reunit 2e2..can't wait 2 go!!i'll be taking pics der n i'll post dem on facebook n my blog..so yeah..dats all 4 now..gonna update ,aybe later or 2moro bout wad happened..bb

2010-04-09T15:50:00.001+08:00

ello ppl..im at com lab having cca..im so bored rite now..nicolle is apparently doing all de work n me n li sing doing ntg..now she's gone 2 de toilet..now we have job 2 do..so bb..update l8r

2010-04-04T11:45:00.002+08:00

ello ppl..im back 2 posting on my blog..all dis while i've been slacking off n lazy 2 use com..anywaes, i got ntg 2 say actually..besides de fact dat im gonna buy frenship ring wif peggy n nicolle soon..anywaes, went out wif FR on friday n de library was closed!!on dat day his sis got married..den next wk she n her husband going usa 2 study..haizz..coz of her marriage he had 2 leave early so didn't get 2 spend much time wif him..k dats all..bb

2010-03-22T20:02:00.002+08:00

yo!!im back!!2day was schl as usual..guess wad happened during recess??salikin got bashed up!..lolz..im so evil..coz his bday 2day if im not wrong..anywaes,after schl raining so couldn't go back home early..so accompany felicia do A maths...den brian was lyk sitting diagonally frm me..he was lyk so lame but fun uhh..

k enuf bout 2day..let me tell u bout ytd instead..but i won't upload anypics lah coz nowadays i vry lazy..went 2 orchard wif my parents n my bro..den walk around in search of my mom's shoes..den bought some stuff 4 myself too..bought a red pendant n teens magazine(vry essential)..n some other stuff....took pic wif some guy in a woman's costume on stilts..so tall sia..next time i upload..compared 2 him,i was lyk so damn short!!anywaes,last wk also went orchard...dat was wen i bought my dress n my white skinny n my ring n my 16.90 hairband n some other stuff..k enuf talking i wan play game..nitez

2010-03-17T19:34:00.002+08:00

ello..jus finished talking 2 fahmie on de phone..i don even noe wad he called me 4..hah..anywaes, im not sick anymore so yeah..2moro going out wif wei min..maybe friday going out wif baby..dats all bb..will update 2moro

2010-03-16T07:54:00.002+08:00

ello!!im sick so don wanna post so long...2 days ago went orchard wif my parents 2 buy bag..but it was lyk a disaster..my dad got frustrated coz instead of buying bag 1st me n my mom bought some clothes..he's lyk so impatient!!wads shopping if u only buy 1 ting rite??!!!wad go shooping 4 bag must buy bag only izzit??no rite!!fuck sia!!k lahs..wan go play game..bb

2010-03-10T15:59:00.003+08:00

yo peeps!!im using de schl's com..raidah is beside me now looking lyk a dodo..muahahahaha!! lolz i so lame sia...anywaes,lising cut her hair!!n it got burnt by a bunsen burner!!!k im getting lamer each day..no lah it's not true..let me tell u bout 2day..1st period p.e..did standing broad jump.
den 2nd period geog..went through paper..den recess den physics..de whole class was lyk dead alrdy..den after dat maths..i was half dead also..de class was extremely quiet sia..den got el..did my compo..nvr finish it..2moro ms yap not coming 2 schl so she give us compre 2 do..damn her!!k now i dunno wad 2 say alrdy..buhbiez!!

2010-03-08T21:16:00.002+08:00

yo!!2day was a normal day..im lyk so bored..anywaes,got back all my results alrdy..but it's lyk so terrible!!!!my L1R5 is lyk 28 n my target was 14..wth rite??!!!dis sux!!!omg!!!i study so hard yet i get bad results..i failed physics terribly n failed geog by 1 mark..how stpd can i be??!!!omg!!!can't stop shouting!!lolz...k lahs i wan relax my mind..wan play game..bb

2010-03-07T20:14:00.002+08:00

yo!!1st i wan say sry coz i nvr update,nvr upload photos,nvr change songs n nvr change background...im too busy n lazy 2 do so..anywaes,i got back all my results....but it's so terrible!!!i don have any A's at all!!!omg!!!so horrible..damn it!!don wanna talk bout it anymore..bb

2010-03-06T19:01:00.002+08:00

ello!!im back!!jus came back lyk 1 hr ago frm cca..damn tiring can!!went orchard..hope got cip points if not i really kill de teacher..took some pics 2gether wif wei min...i'll upload dem some other day..now i lazy...anywaes,me n nicolle are ok now..but we're still not talking lyk last time...

last time we would always walk home frm bpp 2gether den we always talk bout our dreams, our life n other stuff...now it's lyk jus hi..wer u wan go??wad u wan watch??wad u eating or buying??u wan anot??dats all we say..unlike last time...we always have lots of stories 2 say till not enuf time 2 finish dem..but now it's lyk no stories at all....so sad..k lahs i wan listen 2 songs alrdy..bb

cried at schl

2010-03-03T18:31:00.002+08:00

hello ppl....cried terribly at schl jus now..u tell me how would u feel if ur best fren of 5 yrs all of a sudden treats u lyk a stranger???u would feel sad rite??i feel lyk shit rite now..1st i fail my physics badly..den i broke up my frenship wif my best fren of 5 yrs 2day..den i failed geog by 1 mark!!how u expect not 2 cry rite??y must so many bad tings happen 2 me at de same time???it's so unfair..n im sick!omg..wish faris was here wif me rite now..jus talked 2 him on de phone..he made me feel better..

i dunno how im gonna go 2 schl 2moro..feels lyk my world has turned upside down..i studied so hard 4 physics but in de end i failed!!other ppl lyk dorcas who nvr study at all pass..im so disappointed...it's jus so unfair..y must it happen 2 me??y can't it happen 2 some1 else??if u were me i bet u would cry too...k lahs i wan do my work alrdy..bb

so fucked up!!

2010-03-01T18:26:00.002+08:00

im lyk so fucked up rite now!!!my results r so bad!!!i made careless mistakes worth 7.5 marks!!add dem 2 my marks,n i would've gotten an A1!!!omg!!!im so freaked out!!!den chemistry i got c6!!!1st time im getting a c 4 science!!im so disappointed in myself...i hate my life!!!but i luv my luv life..hah..k dats all 4 now..bb

2010-02-21T12:03:00.002+08:00

hey ppl!!it's lyk my bday 2moro but im not even excited bout it..u noe y???coz de next day is exams so i can't enjoy...n it's also coz fairs totally 4got my bday!!!he's known me since last yr n he keeps on 4getting my bday..if he's someone i don't really noe nvm but..urgh..nvm 4get it..i don expect anyting frm him but it's jus dat..k nvm..won't do me any harm...wadeva..now i wan play game..den after maybe do homework den revise..toodles!!

2010-02-20T17:55:00.002+08:00

bam!! lolz..sry i so random..i got it frm vinoth..anywaes,2day went 4 remedial as usual..1st got chem remedial..den finished at bout 10.45..den go out 2 buy food wif marielle n villa..walked all over bangkit searching 4 halal stall..den in de end bought some bread...so nice!!sry ppl if i made u jealous by eating in class...den de test quite ok lah only i dunno wad numbers 2 put on de number line..k now i dunno wad 2 say alrdy..so bb

2010-02-16T17:33:00.002+08:00

yo!!i keep on thinking dat 2day is monday..i noe wad ur tinking..it's either ur tinking dat im dumb or i got stm..i got mtm sometimes..anywaes,i tell u someting arh...sometimes i wish i could break up wif faris but den i'll miss him n i'll hate myself 4ever..wadeva..so yeah..fahmie started talking 2 me again..dats great..but he jus went offline..damn!!hah..k im crazy..k lahs i wan play game liao..bb

2010-02-14T19:46:00.000+08:00

ello again peeps!!im back!!jus now was so fun!!!ok..i can't tell u wad happened jus now coz it's personal n my dad is at home lyk rite beside me...maybe 2moro i'll post n tell u wad happened..well,i jus had great fun!!!oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!k enuf..hah..k now my bro is lyk pestering me 2 let him play so nitez!!

Valentine's Day n Chinese New Year!!

2010-02-14T09:19:00.002+08:00

Ello!!!!!im lyk so happy 2day!!u noe y????coz im going out wif faris!!!ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i luv him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ok enough alrdy hah....k so yeah..can't wait 2 meet him...omg!!!k i can't stop screaming!!!so exciting!!!later i update again..k now i wan go play game..bb!!

2010-02-12T18:42:00.002+08:00

yo peeps!!see dat pic above??i noe it's weird..jus took a random pic of myself coz i was bored...........................anywaes,jus now after schl go watch Valentine's Day..so nice!!i was lyk crying especially de part wen ashton kutcher got ditched..so sad..but most parts were lyk so funny..it was lyk a funny romance movie..nicolle n peggy were lyk so late so we had 2 run 2 lot 1..gosh..den i didn't even get 2 tie my hair n it was flying all over de place..got a lot of greenridgeans go watch..even amir n jeremy n some others gys watch..k now i dunno wad 2 say alrdy..hah..k lahz bb

2010-02-08T19:16:00.001+08:00

yo!!2day was lyk an extremely tiring day..u don wanna noe wad happened during physics lesson..anywaes,no wait..actually i don have anyting 2 say..lolz..k lahs i wan go do someting liao..buhbiez..hah..sry 4 not posting..hah

2010-02-04T20:42:00.002+08:00

ello!!i don really have de mood to post..i'll jus talk bout 2day..well,2day was a really tiring day..n it was lyk so humid..schl as usual den homed..i thought he was different but he's jus lyk any other guy..so much 4 my happy ending..i won't tell u who's de guy coz it's my personal matter..anywaes,im lyk so emo rite now..think i'll be emo 4 a few days..k i wan go liao..nitez..

2010-02-03T20:51:00.002+08:00

ello!!im back!!k dats all i ever say..hah..anywaes,if u haven't known yet,i got back wif faris on saturday which was 30 jan,on de phone...i noe wad ur tinking..ur tinking dat after all dis time n de way he's treated me,y must i get back wif him..well im lonely n he's lonely..n we both still luv each other..haizz..

but now,fahmie starts coming into my life as a fren..im scared dat i'll fall 4 him..b4 dis,i only admire him..now we're lyk frens..i don wanna lose de luv i have now n fall 4 someone else...feel so stressed...n i keep on losing my best frens n some of my best frens are lyk already on de wrong path in life...feel so sad.....k now i no mood 2 type alrdy..bb

2010-01-30T17:33:00.002+08:00

yo!!im back 2 writing..so let's talk bout 2day..went 4 maths remedial..den did test on indices..it sucked!!i f*****g hate indices!!i nd a pyschiatrist..anywaes,took me lyk 1-2 hrs 2 finish it..didn't do question 6 coz not compulsory..den went home..den went out go religious class..den got back home..den im here now playing com..so tired..k stop here..bb

tiring day at schl

2010-01-20T20:55:00.002+08:00

yo!!im back..i jus realised someting..i always say de same tings 4 de 1st sentence..haizz..nvm..2day was a vry vry vry vry vry vry tiring day..really im telling u it was a vry extremely tiring day..1st period was ss..ok lah..ntg much 2 say bout it..

2nd period was mt..it was umm..normal??den recess...3rd period el if im not wrong..den history den geog i tink so..wadeva..geog test so diff sia!!i nvr study finish lorh den some questions my answers lyk crap..i tink i fail liao..k enuf of depressing stuff..

lets talk bout my crush..actually i jus admire him....he's quite cute lah 2 me..i tink ashiqin should noe..he's in soccer if im not wrong..omg!!i jus rmbered..i left my file in class n my history assignment in der..how dumb can i be??k lahs i stop here..tata =)

2010-01-18T18:56:00.001+08:00

ello ppl!!im happy but depressed..u noe y??coz physics really suck!!i hate it!!it's so boring!!n i hate micrometer screwgauge n vernier calipers!!but im happy coz im crushing on some1..lolz..wads so exciting bout dat rite??actually i got ntg 2 talk bout dats y im talking crap..k lahs i need go liao b4 my dad reach home..bb!!

going crazy wif assignments

2010-01-16T19:34:00.002+08:00

i tink im going crazy!!ders lyk lots of assignments 2 do..especially maths!!omg!!!i tink im gonna die!!im going off soon so i'll jus make dis a short post..so here it goes..wait..actually ders ntg 2 talk bout..lolz..sry 4 de inconvenience caused..byez!!

im so stressed!!

2010-01-14T21:03:00.003+08:00

ello!!it's been a vry long time since i posted..my life is getting so boring..i noe..anywaes,i don tink i'll change de skin..not till de end of de yr i guess..hah..or maybe during march holidays..coz my schedule is lyk so packed even though im not taking A maths..

ders lots of homework 2 do so i don have time 2 use de com anymore except wen im done wif homework or maybe half done..well lets jus talk bout wads been happening at schl lately..

vincent grew taller..trust me..salikin gre as tall as me..now i feel so short..hah..i had my dad write a letter 2 propose dat i take A maths....i 4got 2 give de letter 2day so i'll give it 2 de teacher 2moro..i really hope i get 2 take coz i nd it 2 lyk go into a gd JC...ders geog test n maths test 2moro n i haven't study yet..my 2 maths weekend assignments r not done yet..my 1st one is half done..der was hse meeting which was so stpd n BORING!!maybe i should stop here..i talk too much..if ur in my class u'll noe wads been happening..oh ya..i jus rmb..ders dis guy dat im lyk crushing on..he's so cute!!lol..hah..won't tell all de details coz later secret will be opened..k lahs nitez!!

2010-01-07T16:29:00.005+08:00

hello ppl!!im back!!i've been so busy wif schl lately dat i don have time 2 post..even though im not taking A math,im still busy u noe...anywaes,i tink im starting 2 have a crush on some1 again..haizz..so yeah wadeva..k lahs i wan play game liao..buhbiezz

schl reopens 2moro!!woohoo!!

2010-01-03T22:40:00.004+08:00

yo peeps!!im finally back 2 posting on my blog!!2moro's de big day!!finally!!i've been dying 2 get back 2 schl!anywaes,i've been going out wif my family lately so no time 2 post..went etp n www.............so fun!!see dat pic down der?i noe my fringe is kinda weird but at least now it doesn't cover my eyes =) n dis pic below is my ex-faris..i actually took it frm his tagged profile..hah..don tell any1 pls..i miss him..i've always been missing him..haizz...how i wish tings could go back 2 how dey were b4..gosh he's super thin!!but a strong guy..i really miss him..jus wish dat 2010 will be better 4 him after all dat he's been through during 2009..k lahs i wan slp liao..nitez!!